[Sensei-kun]

[Only registered users can see links. ], does anyone have it?
well, I do (to be more precise I've [Only registered users can see links. ] but lately they say I've Autism, well, you know how doctors are... )

thanks to Autism I've been living a real [Only registered users can see links. ] life for about 2 years.
although atm not anymore. am getting help from GGnet for about a year now (a dutch institution for the mental (psychiatric) health care. )
but like anyone else it first took about 12 to 18 months before they finally found out what I have.
last time I heard I've Autism, Depression (from my mothers side) and Panic Attacks.

so what I want to ask is if anyone else here also has Autism and how they live with it (doctors often say it's a good thing to talk with people who have the same)

[Misuzu]

Oh sensei, i'm glad to hear you're doing better! I really am, from what you said. It is really hard for people who have mental disorder, or any of these mental problems. We all do in a way (have little problems that we avoid and blame other things like stress and all), but most of us just didnt find out yet. Its good to see you're taking care of it, and hope you can deal with it, so you can just live with it like its not there. I dont have it (even tho i've me own issues, but lets not go off topic) but i really have a very clear idea of how you feel and what you're going through so do your best always!

[/\/\ao]

hmmmm.........is kind of multiple personalities count in ur problem sensei???

[Darkest]

Quote: Originally Posted by /\/\ao

hmmmm.........is kind of multiple personalities count in ur problem sensei???

Hell no! >_<
That relates to something completely different.

Autism relates to other mental issues such as aspherses symdrome (causes you to have difficulty communicating with other people), dispraxia (motion and spacal awareness), dslyexia (very common in most people, it hinders your learning progress and comes in many varities {especially when it comes to spelling and grammar >.> <.<}) and other similar mental issues (however I'm not saying sensei has those >.>).

All I say sensei is you're definitely not alone and kudos for getting help for it. In additional, rape the government and any other local governing body (education, etc) of any benefits that can help you (e.g. free laptop [seriously you can get a free laptop/PC in the UK], software, extra time in exams, etc).

Believe me, if you play your cards right, you'll end up on top.

[Sensei-kun]

well, atm I'm getting medication that atleast stops the depression (and came in time aswell, or I'd probably be six feet under the ground right now xD )

but I've problems communicating with people (makes me very nervous and panicky) and because of the depression I constantly think that people think bad of me, it's gotten so bad that it's now completely normal for me to automatically think that people think bad of me, so like I said the medication came in time to stop this downgoing cycle.

another problem of mine is also that my senses are very strong. so whenever I'm in a crowd my head gets overloaded with things that my senses pick up. and I get already nervous and panicky if I'm with 1 person that's not close to me, just think how a whole school building would be for me...

so when I was 16 I just snapped 1 morning and stayed in bed for 2 whole weeks. around that time I started staying at home, and it wouldn't be weird if I didn't leave the house for 1 whole month.

but now that they know what I have they can try helping me with it (it's been about a year now since they know what I have) have been on medication for about 3 months now and soon will join one of those talkgroups... well, they're not exactly talkgroups, but they'll help people like me with their communication problems.

@/\/\ao, sorry, but no, multiple personalities doesn't really fit in with Autism xD although it is a mental problem... but sometimes I think I've some kind of multiple personalities aswell, since I'm a completely different person when I'm alone...

@Misuzu, it's nice to know that there are more people like me, but the problem is that they're hard to find. like I know 2 other people with PDD-NOS, but they're completely different then me. they ask for attention when I'm the complete opposite. 1 of them even was an Arson and was on the news for a while.

and right now I'm first trying to get used with being with a few people, if I can manage that I'm planning on doing an IT Education, because with IT you've the chance you can do some of the work at home, so that'd be perfect for me

[wat3v3r]

ahh sensei no one thinks bad of you im sure of that i barely know you i just went to ya blog posted in ya shoutbox and the 1st impression i got of you was that your a cool guy and i think everyone who met you on that blog of yours or anywhere will think the same if they talked to you

As for communication problem i had too when i was 12 i didnt like to talk to people i would keep to myself get nervous when someone talked to me but as time went i got some friends inspite of my behaviour >.> and i thought y am i afraid to talk to him/her theyre jus normal ppl like me it wont hurt to talk back and all i know it sounds easy but its tough when u didnt want tot alk to anyone before n all >.>

Many ppl dont like crowded places i dont either it pisses me off to be frank but i try to ignore that how i do that hmm kick a friend (lol) or listen to music or play moi psp or get somethin to eat (always work xD)

anyways u aint alone with this sensei so try ur best ^^ we'll all be here for you n i bet those baka's on your blog will too ^^;; ( i hope none of em read this xD)

Well sensei u made me say somethins i wont say easily but i hope it helps ( my dumb ramblin :p) wish u luck with IT

[Sensei-kun]

well, I act differently on the net then in real life, just like any other person using the internet xD
when I'm on the internet I'm home in my room (place where I feel the safest) and with internet I basically don't have any direct contact that can bother me (even a phone call can stress me all out )
but still on the internet I have a limit, so it's not that big of a help...

and 10 people is already a crowd for me, hell, maybe 5 already is. one of the reasons why I stopped going to school is because you're constantly in a very big crowd of people you don't know. that really was like poison for me.

and well, the problem with my problems is that I've had them since birth and they've been growing with me with each year I got older, so the older I became the more worse my problems became, and if I didn't had any help or if no one noticed I would probably be six feet under right now or I'd have mentally snapped.

I already know I have this problem and I can never get rid of it, that doesn't really bother me (actually like being alone) but I do have to get out of the house at 1 point and get a job, and that's the problem for me. so now I've to try and see if I can overcome this problem by atleast getting used to be in a small crowd.

and this is something you really can't talk about with everyone, since probably most will be like "don't make it such a problem" or "it's really easy, anyone can do it" but those comments are actually more damaging then helping, since it makes you realize just how difficult the problem is.
you can't do something that almost everyone else can do.

so yea, currently I'm in... well, treatment if you can call that. I have medicine that I need to take in everyday to help me get rid of the depression so I won't end up six feet under, the medicine also helps me by making my thought a bit calmer, since I could never fall asleep at night. I just couldn't stop my thought and it'd take 30 to 60 minutes before I fell asleep.
so I've a doctor for the medication, and a psychologist to talk to about my problems who can help me think of ways to handle those problems. and like I said before, soon I'll join one of those talkgroups or whatever they are called. so I'll be with a small group of people who have the same and learn how to communicate and handle the problems.

if choice was up to me I'd be a Hikikimori for life, I really like staying at home and being alone. but sadly enough I'm also a realistic person, so I know this life can't always go on like this and that I need to prepare for when the dream ends...

[wat3v3r]

hmmz thats true ppl on net can be different i never got the reason y though lol im too baka to think all that stuff anyways keep it simple best way

and yea i hope those group thing helps sometimes talking it out is the best way, afterall its only u who can help himself other ppl can just give support

and you dont wanna be a Hikikimori >.> i met a guy on a japanese board and it was weird to say the least

[/\/\ao]

Quote: Originally Posted by Sensei-kun

well, I act differently on the net then in real life, just like any other person using the internet xD
when I'm on the internet I'm home in my room (place where I feel the safest) and with internet I basically don't have any direct contact that can bother me (even a phone call can stress me all out )
but still on the internet I have a limit, so it's not that big of a help...

and 10 people is already a crowd for me, hell, maybe 5 already is. one of the reasons why I stopped going to school is because you're constantly in a very big crowd of people you don't know. that really was like poison for me.

and well, the problem with my problems is that I've had them since birth and they've been growing with me with each year I got older, so the older I became the more worse my problems became, and if I didn't had any help or if no one noticed I would probably be six feet under right now or I'd have mentally snapped.

I already know I have this problem and I can never get rid of it, that doesn't really bother me (actually like being alone) but I do have to get out of the house at 1 point and get a job, and that's the problem for me. so now I've to try and see if I can overcome this problem by atleast getting used to be in a small crowd.

and this is something you really can't talk about with everyone, since probably most will be like "don't make it such a problem" or "it's really easy, anyone can do it" but those comments are actually more damaging then helping, since it makes you realize just how difficult the problem is.
you can't do something that almost everyone else can do.

so yea, currently I'm in... well, treatment if you can call that. I have medicine that I need to take in everyday to help me get rid of the depression so I won't end up six feet under, the medicine also helps me by making my thought a bit calmer, since I could never fall asleep at night. I just couldn't stop my thought and it'd take 30 to 60 minutes before I fell asleep.
so I've a doctor for the medication, and a psychologist to talk to about my problems who can help me think of ways to handle those problems. and like I said before, soon I'll join one of those talkgroups or whatever they are called. so I'll be with a small group of people who have the same and learn how to communicate and handle the problems.

if choice was up to me I'd be a Hikikimori for life, I really like staying at home and being alone. but sadly enough I'm also a realistic person, so I know this life can't always go on like this and that I need to prepare for when the dream ends...

many ppl also act different on net, reasons coz no1 know their past and they can make a new look
but if u want 2 live by internet then it'll be hard except u a damn smart person tat can build an online business company (or more simple, hack the bank lolz)

well me also can't enjoy crowd........and how 2 endure is like wat said, kick some of them (doin body contact) juz 2 make playful look then scram ASAP
another 1 if itz unavoidable, then itz time 2 play as actor >,< (what I mean is fake ur own emotion and become totally different person outside)

btw I also kind of like u since I'm 5 years old due to bullyin -_-;;;
and the way get rid of my fear and depression is fight back (but gah I'm suck) ----> punch and fight every1 who dare 2 disturb me or I feel he/she is disturbin, and live the way I want to live, screw all of the shit and bad mouth tat ppl press on me >.<

and juz wanna ask, r u scared with ur fam members too???

[Macho Moron]

Quote: Originally Posted by /\/\ao

btw I also kind of like u since I'm 5 years old due to bullyin -_-;;;

Only you think so.

*doesn't say anything about sensei-kun's post yet*

[Sensei-kun]

Quote: Originally Posted by wat3v3r

hmmz thats true ppl on net can be different i never got the reason y though lol im too baka to think all that stuff anyways keep it simple best way

and yea i hope those group thing helps sometimes talking it out is the best way, afterall its only u who can help himself other ppl can just give support

and you dont wanna be a Hikikimori >.> i met a guy on a japanese board and it was weird to say the least

lol, people on the net often tell me I'm weird xD
but what you said is true, the only one who can help me is myself, others can only give me advice or encouragement.

Quote: Originally Posted by /\/\ao

many ppl also act different on net, reasons coz no1 know their past and they can make a new look
but if u want 2 live by internet then it'll be hard except u a damn smart person tat can build an online business company (or more simple, hack the bank lolz)

well me also can't enjoy crowd........and how 2 endure is like wat said, kick some of them (doin body contact) juz 2 make playful look then scram ASAP
another 1 if itz unavoidable, then itz time 2 play as actor >,< (what I mean is fake ur own emotion and become totally different person outside)

btw I also kind of like u since I'm 5 years old due to bullyin -_-;;;
and the way get rid of my fear and depression is fight back (but gah I'm suck) ----> punch and fight every1 who dare 2 disturb me or I feel he/she is disturbin, and live the way I want to live, screw all of the shit and bad mouth tat ppl press on me >.<

and juz wanna ask, r u scared with ur fam members too???

well, IT can be all kinds of computer related things, like making programs or designing sites.
I'm still not so sure on what way I want to go in the IT world, but I like making things on the computer so...

and well, I also think when I'm alone that the rest don't scare me or screw them all,
but when I'm actually with people I take a 180 turn, so it's very hard to actually do it.
and I can almost puke at myself when I act friendly.
it's so disgusting to act like that.

as for your question, well, if it's direct family (like parents or brothers/sisters) I'm not scared.
but when it gets to Aunts, Uncles, Nieces And Nephews I already get scared.

[wat3v3r]

hmm IT can be diverse it requires coding and studying various languages like C C++ , java , SQL etc etc and usually IT is in joint projects in big firms so yea but i noticed your good at gfx stuff y dont you try web designing course i think u would like that better